Blue Text, Green Text, Read Text, No Text

I done goofed, friends.

And so we begin with your favorite start to a story,

So there’s this guy…

I went to a party the other night with some friends. 

This party, if you must know. Had an absolute blast. Anything with DJ Na$h’s name on it I highly recommend attending. I digress, though.

At the party. Saw this guy, liked his face. Saw him again later. Liked his face again. Wanted to do something about that…but nahhhhh, couldn’t be me.

I don’t talk to people, okay? If you think I do, realize I’m probably getting paid to make you think so. I don’t do it. Especially not at parties. And especially still when people are cute. People who talk to people don’t have blogs to hide behind. Just all of the absolutely not.

But the third shot of Maker’s Mark said, “Absolutely fuck yeah! Go talk to him.”

It took until the end of the night but by the power of Maker’s(and my crazy-ass friend dance-kicking me towards this guy), I told him I thought he was cute, and we exchanged numbers.

And after that, we didn’t talk.

Okay not exactly, but I really dig that Goldlink album and was just listening to it and I’m getting hella off track. ANYWAYS

I shot him a text after I left the party. He got back to me but it was late, nothing much was said until the next day. Next morning he messages picking back up and apologizing because he thought he already replied. I said no worries, I’m not one to get caught up in read-receipts and whatnot. And we agreed on that being an annoying trait of our generation nowadays and shared some lols.

But then the last message I sent turned green…

This is my first iPhone, and I haven’t really taken the time to figure out the different Apple nuances in the time I’ve had it. But I know that means maybe someone’s phone died or they aren’t online or whatever. I also know that sometimes my friends never receive my green messages when they get their phones back on, or they won’t appear immediately.

But how, after the last thing we discussed, would I dare check whether he received my text or not? How could I know? Certainly not by texting him! We established this, I’m not pressed for replies. But also established, neither is he.

What if it didn’t go through? What if on his end, I haven’t replied yet? And yet on my end, he hasn’t replied yet? WHO DROPPED THE BALL? To know…would be to thirst. Right? Maybe? So we’re just gonna stand in all our hydrated, solitary glory then, huh? Are we cool with that?

I can’t stand being my age, and if I were any younger…boy am I just grateful I’m not! I can barely manage with the weird social politics and etiquette that changes every two days. I’m not about all this navigating through communication across these many mediums. I’m too inclined to read into things and pick apart every little detail or speculation of a detail. It’s too much to think about, it’s rarely ever that deep, and it’s making an already awkward person even worse.

I can never text him again. And he might never be able to text me again.

Ruined before it even had a chance. We’ll never know what could have been.

It was a nice 30 or so hours while it lasted, I guess. Maybe we’ll bump into each other at another party. Maybe we’ll laugh about it. Or perhaps neither of us will ever recover the nerve to say anything. Only time will tell. But it’s all good, I’m not pressed anyways…

Okay, so I’ll probably just text him tomorrow sometime. But shut up, though.

Quarter Life Crisis: How Many Stormys

…does it take to change a light bulb?

No seriously.

The lights in the main room of my apartment went out last week.

Here we go, I thought, forced to face yet another new trial in this world we call “adulting.”

Geez, I tell ya. Every time you start thinking you’re doing a pretty good job at this stuff, the lights go out on all of your pride. In this case, quite literally.

Disclaimer: The title of this post is not a matter of questioning my ability to replace a light bulb. I mean c’mon guys, I didn’t grow up that privileged and oblivious. I’ve changed many a light bulb in my day, EXCUSE YOU.

But see,

the light bulb changing process, as I’ve known it, has always gone as follows:

1.) Light bulb goes out

2.) Storm goes to the storage closet/garage/junk drawer/fallout shelter/apocalypse bunker/what have you, and pulls out new light bulb

3.) Storm replaces light bulb

4.) Storm revels in her accomplished task (it’s the little things, guys), and basks in the new light

But this time is different.

This time, I can’t figure out Step 2.

I went to the storage closet/garage/junk drawer/fallout shelter/apocalypse bunker/what have you, to discover that not only do I not even have a storage closet/garage/junk drawer/fallout shelter/apocalypse bunker/what have you in my shoebox of a studio, but I also don’t have any light bulbs!

It was in that moment that it occurred to me.

Light bulbs are a thing…that you buy. They don’t just come with the concept of having your own living space.

And woah, woah WAIT…

nothing does…

Oh. My. God. What’s next? What have I gotten myself into? How does anyone do this? I—I never read the manual! It didn’t come with the deal either.

…Just like the light bulbs.

…Just like everything else.

And I repeat, Oh my God. I eventually stopped hyperventilating and peeled myself off the floor and prepared myself to be a competent human being and get more light bulbs. But hold on. Where do light bulbs come from?

Ideas?

Light bulb stork?

Light bulbs R Us?

Lightbulbs.org?

Light bulb dealer under the sketchy overpass?

I took to the Internet. You can apparently get them…almost everywhere. Who knew?! Don’t actually answer that. But anyways, Google sent me to Lowe’s. I unscrewed one of my light bulbs for reference, and headed there.

By the time I arrived at the store, I had sent myself through at least three different levels of mental anguish about the whole ordeal. A strange mix of embarrassment and pride led me to look for the light bulbs, refusing to ask for any assistance.

Like a moth to a flame, I walked towards the middle of the warehouse to the lighting department. You know, where all the lamps and ceiling fans and lawn lights, and just…just all the lights are. And they’re all on. And of course I’d find light bulbs in a giant area of lit ones, right?

I couldn’t find a single light bulb for sale.

In the light section. The section of the store where everything related to making your home not dark is located. I walk one aisle over. Doorbells. I go to the other aisle over. Nuts and bolts. I go back to the lighting department, because it only makes sense, and I must have overlooked it.

So much light.

So many fans.

It’s bright.

It’s cool.

It’s lacking in light bulbs.

And I’m lacking in patience.

I asked for help. The light bulbs were in aisle 1. Only as far away as possible from the light section without putting them outside with the potted plants. But who am I to try and apply common sense to the organization of a hardware store?

Finally, light bulbs.

There are numbers. Numbers with Ws next to them.

weather? water? why?…wumbo?

Let’s just say it stands for whatever, because my head is starting to hurt.

Okay, well how many whatever’s do I need? Does it matter? Would it be there if it didn’t matter? How am I suppposed to know how many whatever’s I need?

I pull out the old light bulb that I remembered that I brought with me for such a time as this. I analyze the small print at the base of the bulb.

Trisonic. Numbers with a K at the end. Numbers with a V at the end. Assorted warnings that I skimmed. Where’s the W? There’s no W. And the boxes of light bulbs have no Ks or Vs… Well this was a load of help.

I figure I’ll just buy a box, and if it blows up my house, I’ll return it for the correct amount of whatever’s. You would think that was the end of my debacle. But no. I get through the whatever’s and then I’m faced with all of these colors.

Soft white. Off white. Bright white. Bright bright white. Not so bright white. Egg white. Cocaine white. White power. And then the yellows. Please don’t make me re-live the yellows.

Since when does light have a color anyway? I thought it was all the colors and none of the colors? At the same time, kinda? I don’t know, I was an English major in school, science is lost on me. And so is this purchase.

I just had a seat on the floor for a moment. Confused. Overwhelmed. Thinking to myself, I’m…going to die here…trying to buy light bulbs.

No.

I can’t go out like that.

I just bought a damn box. It said ‘Daylight.’ And I figured maybe the 60w bulbs, because my apartment is old so maybe I don’t want all of the whatevers, but I deserve more than the bare minimum of whatevers…whatever the whatevers are.

I successfully replaced all seven light bulbs in my apartment, and a week has gone by without me short circuiting the building so I guess I did it right? Right amount of whatevers. The daylight light is kind of nice for selfies. I’d consider this a win. Yes. I did the adulting and won. Until my next crisis, guys.